Dear mother who wrote me 6 letters who I love. =)
Things here are still going wonderful and the work is moving on. I'm so grateful for all of your prayers and I feel them every day that I go out. The trust with the members here has grown so much. Its such an amazing feeling being a tool in the hands of the Lord.
This week was fast Sunday (which me and Elder Smith totally forgot) and as we were sitting down Elder Smith leaned over and said " Hey have you bore your testimony in this ward yet?" I looked at him and said no. He replied " Hmm you should go up then." So I looked back at the front and got that shaky feeling. I knew he was right. I started to pray and ask God if he really wanted me to go up and if I did what I should say. As I did memories started to shoot through my mind about how I decided to go on a mission and on how I got converted to know the church was true. So then I knew I had to go up and I knew what I needed to share. But then you know when you start getting those second thoughts? Well ya that was going through my mind. My heart was pumping 110 beats a second and my hand was shaking like it was negative forty degree's outside. I started to contemplate on everything again. And I started to pray and ask god that he would be with me and that he would give me the strength to stand up in front of these people. As I did these things I started to receive my answer and started to have things go through my mind like " Why are you on a mission" " I chose you to be my mouth piece and I will give you the things to say and the time that they need to be spoken" So I slowly started to pump my self to go up when finally I just stood straight up and started to walk toward the front. I got up to the podium and started to bare my testimony of the church and how I found out this church to be true.
I promise you the Lord gives you the things that you need to say when you need to say them. I know that the Holy Ghost is real and that he testifies of truth to everyone that hears. I know that he did that for me as I stood up and bore my testimony. After the church service I had so many come up to me and thanking me for what I shared. We had so many members come up to us and asked us how they could help us out with missionary work. We finally got some member excitement going strong for us. I know that the Holy Ghost was with me as I was up there. I am so weak with out Him Mom. And in your letter you said you were going through some hard times. I promise you if you pray and ask for help he will help you just as much as he has helped me. I know that he can give you strength in your time of need. And that he will help you over come the trials that you are going through right now. I have learned that he will never take away any trials until we learn the thing that he is trying to teach us from it. A lot of times as I have prayed and asked for help for my trials I kind of expect him to take that trial away. But I realized God doesn't work that way. He has given me that trial for a reason. And there's something to be learned from it. And until I learn what he's trying to teach me he will not take it away.
Well I'm out of time again. I love you so much mom and thank your for all of your emails. =)
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